Trust

Lately i have felt low trust in my friends. I have let them down by doubting them and not listening. I have tried to work so hard on this but cant seem to change. I love all my friends and want to keep them so much. Maybe too much though. If i don't get a call or text back i freak out. I know its wrong and i have lost friends along the road for this reason. So the point of this is to let you all readers know when you have doubts ignore them, or find a solution. Talk to your friends about how you feel and if they cant accept that then their not your real friends. If they are true friends, they will try to love you and accept you always. Love them, support them, and talk to them even if they don't talk back.

District Select

A while ago i was feeling low. Things had happened in my family and i was just not happy. So like i normally do i went to play my cello. But this time it was different. I felt sad still. I felt like i didnt sound good. I cried and was talking to my mom. I didnt know why i felt so low, i felt like quitting. i slept and went to school the next day. I was feeling low and still didnt completely like how i sounded and felt depressed. So the same thing happened. Accept when i went to school i didnt feel so sad. I went to orchestra and the teacher had some news. She told us all about District Select Orchestra (DSO) and got us all excited. DSO is where the teacher selects (Hehe hence the "S")the most talented students from each of their classes. These students go and play with the other selected kids from around the district. They have a big concert with actually really cool music and so the parents can ACTUALLY ENJOY the concert. So why am i telling you about this? Because my teacher chose me! I am so excited to do it! My concert is november 16th at 7:00 PM at Northridge High School. Please come support. You may actually enjoy it. :)

Im alright

What i have recently discovered is that you may not be expecting something to happen. I know right? I just barely figured that one out. Someone may have hurt you in the past. And thats okay. Im Alright. What they may have said to you could have hurt you so badly you question your own worth. But its okay. Im alright. Ill get through it and forgive the people who hurt me. They might have realized what they did was wrong. Maybe not. Still be their friend. Love everyone and deal with it. Like my awesome Mom said (at one point) "Put on your big kid panties and deal with it". So do! If something happened, it happened. With me it was about my friends. With anyone reading this it could be completely different. But accept it and move on. Remember theres someone who has felt your pain. Oprah! Awe who am i kidding? You know who it really is. Just slip that one in your back pocket.